I recently posted a “brief” video on my Youtube channel about my natural hair journey. A few days before recording that video, I cut my hair so I thought the video would be a way to let my viewers know what was up. I didn’t want to make the video too long so I decided that whatever didn’t make it into my video would be covered in this blog post.
I mostly just want to talk about how I feel mentally and emotionally about my hair and my haircut. The main reason why I took so long to cut off my damaged hair was because I think I’m ugly. When I first cut my hair over 7 years ago, I was MUCH slimmer than I am now (almost 100 pounds lighter, seriously). To me, my more slender face complemented my very short hair. Now that I’ve gained so much weight, I feel like my huge, round face and double chin are more prominent with shorter hair. Of course I could always fake my face shape in photos by changing my face angle and in certain lighting but in person I just feel ugly. So, even though my natural was so damaged, I refused to cut it because my bigger hair off-set my big face. But I told myself, after I finished grad school, I was going to force myself to work on myself. That is, I want to work on my health in all aspects, mental, emotional, and physical. So I gotta embrace this face, this hair, this body!
I’ll keep y’all updated on the many ways I plan on changing and healing my mental health starting this Summer! In the mean time, check out my video and some throwback photos below!